I can't stand new agers; they freak me out. So to have fun with my detestation, my friend and I devised a plan for me to make up a new age name, present myself to a local new age shop, and flaunt my occult credentials.  I would make a whole other personality for myself. Maybe the typical twink who actually buys everyone else's pet ideas. That would fit in nice. They, being low class charlatans, would eat that shit up. The more you layer it on, the more insecure they get. (They don't seem to have developed that sarcasm which young adults have mastered to combat with overly confident people.) I would spend my time there giving the most sly yet outrageous tarot readings.

After thinking of some new age names and emailing them to my friend, this is what he responded:


My my my. You came up with some good ones here.

I like John Isis, however I think more ov some sex fiend douche-fuck longhair Rocker who fancies himself far too perfect, pretty & brilliant before I think ov some ass hole gay(?) self-acclaimed psychic clairvoyant giving Tarot readings at the local new age circle-jerk orgy store.

I like ov course "Amethyst Receiver!!!" Buttered up nice & gayly. Really emphasizes what a puppet you can be. definitely suggests that you think you can hear what spirits/angel/demons/whatever have to say. (faggot.) & Amethyst for short gives a good gay vibe. Hah during a "powerful reading" where you uncover something vaguely huge if someone should ask you some question starting with,"Amethyst Receiver, what about_________________?" you in an unfathomable pulse of psychic sincerity, love & familiarity interrupt insisting, "Please! just amethyst!" Or something like that, should throw new age ass licking n****rs [edited] further off.

Frater OM, Phallus Dei, Magus Lux are all clearly references. & I'm unfamiliar with all ov them. They could all be very fun though. Any dick-hole insecure new-age charlatan you deal with would see the name must refer to something & maybe pretend to know so as to impress you. Or when they ask what the name is & how it was (no doubt) "given to you" in some super psychic trance or whatever, your story you make up could be a fun thing. something far out there but relevant (fitting  their fuck ass delusional definition anyways) to inspire faith in you. Frater OM (or whoever) IS the most powerful psychic in the city! his story ov how he came to possess his powers is too unbelievable to NOT believe! & he's so sure in himself so he must be the best!

Let me know what you decide.

with love.

This evening I got a text message on my phone (a txt) from someone in the 541 area code that I didn't have registered in my phone. The message read, "Im reading Aleister Crowley." The follow are the incoming messages and my responses:

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Incoming: Im reading Aleister Crowley.
Outgoing: Who is this?
Outgoing: Scott? Read Vivekananda's Raja-Yoga and then the intro to Regardie's Golden Dawn.
Incoming: This isn't Scott but I will take your advice and start with those books. I think I will remain anonymos for now.

[At this time I turned my phone off to perform a Fellow Craft initiation. When I turned my phone back on, there was a message waiting for me...]

Incoming: You can trust me.

[I got into it...]

Outgoing: Intriguing... But my aid to you may be my undoing if you are an enemy. But I stand with obligation to give a brother (or sister) aid. I will help you become strong, yea perhaps stronger than I.

[Jokingly of course.]
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What's next? The formation of my txt lodge with txt initiations? That actually sounds like something the Ciceros might try.

It seems that initiations are operating with archetypal symbols so that the candidate (and observers) can reflect on them in a removed way so that they can recognize them more easily in their true form in the universe. (i.e. science, psychology, namely in our own psyche that we try so hard to manipulate.)

I also think, that that's why repetition is important. It kneads the messages into our heads so that we can easily incorporate them into our thinking.

Again, speculation.

Certainly initiations do other things like certify the completion of a goal and announce the beginning of a new goal.

Argument: The Roman numerals of LVX equals 65, as does the Hebrew numeration of Adonai.

Conclusion: Light is the nature of the Higher Self.


The conclusion harmonizes with Golden Dawn theory, but one might argue that the relationship setup in the argument is contrived (like some or all numerological exegeses). But with a little suspended disbelief in Qabbalistic analysis itself, the analysis can be used as a psuedo-intellectual system to strengthen one's belief in the conclusions that the system is being used to engineer.

All together, these relationships create a facade, a Qabbalistic palace in the sky, which can aid the Will (where all power lies). But ultimately, to cross the abyss one must understand that this palace is a lie used as a stilt. It is only a catalyst.





This argument comes with no first-hand AA or GD initiation experience. I am merely speculating to the best of my ability.


P.S. "{C/K/Q(u)}ab(b)ala(h)" is copyright pending.

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